Life's a journey filled with memories, some bring a smile, others teach us a lesson....

Because He lives I can face tomorrow                                                           -Bill Gaither Came across this song when I was a teenager and it was close to my heart. Now it’s closer.           God sent His son, they called Him Jesus;           He came to love, heal and forgive;           He lived and died to buy my pardon,           An empty grave is there to prove my saviour lives. When I was small I questioned life and wondered which of the many Gods is true and convinced myself that the verse of this song is true and Jesus my Saviour is "The way, The Truth and The Life." ...

Today kick starts the anniversary of our final journey with Neville. What started as an self containing disease chickenpox became life threatening leukemia.  What is anniversary? 1. The annually recurring date of a past event, especially one of historical, national, or personal importance. 2. A celebration commemorating such a date. Anniversaries are joyous occasions when we thank God for what He has done in our life. What can we be thankful for when we have lost our son? Does it really make sense ? I have a choice today to either relive the painful memories God allowed in our lives or  be thankful to God for the promises and presence of God which kept us going the past one year. I choose to thank God as, yes during this difficult time we only saw God in control.   For so long I have been trying to document those promises but have failed as emotions took over. Last year when I started blogging little did I realise it was a covenant between Go...

The journey that started on Dec 18th with Neville's leukemia ended on March 18th with Neville moving on from this earthly life of leukemia  to an eternal life of no more pain, suffering  or leukemia. The end of one journey is the beginning of another. God is now taking us through the journey of pain of losing a son. The past 5 months have been the toughest in our life. 

I don't know where to start my previous blog was prepared at least 2 months back but it took so long to post it why?... I realized that when God wanted me to start the blog he had some plan what it was I didn't know at that time but now they have started falling into place. It was like God asking me to document what I believe and then testing me to see if I live by it. Let me start with the onset of 2012. We started the new year with God promising us saying "I will do new things for you" and  from Isaiah 55:8 which says "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD.(NIV) the same verse in NLT is "My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts," says the LORD. "And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine For 2 years my husband had got about 8 to 9 offers from Indonesia. We were settled in our own house and the boys comfortable in their school and my husband had a nice job we really did...

Believe others? How? For what they are ..with their good and bad..When we like somebody we put with all the difficulties they cause us but if somebody gets into our wrong books whatever good they do never matters they are always bad in our eyes. "Once bitten twice shy" is a famous quote which makes us careful when somebody takes us for a ride or we feel we have got  a raw deal. How many times do we know that our innocent words have hurt the other person or our genuine concern is misunderstood that we intend harm for them. I have realized it, maybe a little late in life but I feel it's better late than never.   As a child I misunderstood  many of my parents instructions now I see the same with my kids.  Our spouse may not understand us. What do we do in this situation?  Again it is our relationship with God that come to help us. God wants us to love our enemies as ourselves. If we don't believe God we will never give thought t...

Believe Myself? Should never be a problem.... that's what we think.  some of us lack self confidence  or  are we  over confident? sounds familiar....   Yes but both are not good,  Why? When we lack self confidence we don't live to our potential  and when we are over confident we live in a make belief world of our own. I am a dark Indian girl. My dad, mum and brother are all on the fairer side.  This always gave me a complex and as a young kid I never had self confidence.  It was at this time I came across this verse from the Bible  Psalm 139:13-16 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful , I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; So the God who cre...

Believe what? God, Myself, Family, Friends, Situation...... Well these are the things that come to my mind.  In my difficulty right now the only question I have now is WHY ME????? This makes me wonder how did I come into being? So is there is a power above me? Who created me? If it's my  dad and mum? Who Created them? Well I like to call this power God. Now there are so many God's Who is the true God? I was born and brought up in a strict christian family. In my younger days I did not like to read my Bible or pray. I feared my parents so did it with no conviction. But It was at that time my search for God began... I said  if I was born in a Muslim family  I would believe Allah was God. If in a Hindu family I would  worship the numerous Gods. Just because I'm born in a Christian family I am supposed to believe Jesus is God. I challenged Jesus in my heart saying   why I should believe you are The God...